Saturday, October 30, 2010

Cerita Oktober

27th - 30th October 2010, admitted due to aderoids enlargement.

We spent more days staying in hospital compared to my own hometown.

Perhaps it's time to become a stay at home mom.

Perhaps the time has come.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Dua Tahun Hidup Berumahtangga

Dua tahun lepas, waktu yang sama, kami berada di mesjid untuk upacara nikah.
Tahun lepas, tarikh yang sama, saya duduk dekat rumah diam-diam depan laptop, pakai kain batik.

Saya dan Kekasih.
Dua entiti dengan personaliti dan citarasa berbeza.

Like the fact that he loves sports. He was actively involved with sports when he was in school.
And me. I hate any kind of sports. I hate that 1/2 hour PJK subject in school. I rather pay RM2 per day penalty of not attending sport practice each year.

Oh oh oh and like the fact his favourite CSI character is, Horatio.
Like, WTH Horatio???????
Horatio kan sangat poyo?
Haruskah berposing sambil memasukkan tangan ke dalam poket, dan kemudian membetulkan sunnies sambil berpusing badan ala ala hindustan sambil rambut terjuntai di dahi?

Tolong lah Horatio. Sila contohi Grissom, please.
Grissom bercakap dengan serangga. Grissom adalah cool.

OK apa kejadah yang aku merepek ni?

Anyway, berbalik kepada topik asal.
Kami berbeza, dan ada masa (selalunya) mencari pasal macam Tom & Jerry.
But we have Tisya to save the day.

Untuk Kekasih, selamat ulangtahun perkahwinan yang kedua!


Thursday, October 14, 2010

Confession 1

I'm miss my SuperMak and SuperAyah teribbly.

They've been staying at my litlle flat for few days before the departure.

Everyday when I woke up, I can hear my SuperAyah's voice recite Quran at next room.

While SuperMak in the kitchen preparing coffee for him.

I just want to broke down and cry.

I need my siblings a.k.a my baduts to cheer me up.

But Hazlami drove himself to Penang on the night my parents left.

And Hidayah drove all by herself to Terengganu yesterday.

I'm counting days to meet them again.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

SuperMak

Both of parents are going to Mecca tonight.

And my youngest sister gonna stay with us until they arrive back at Malaysia somewehre in November.

I know, SuperMak is worried sick to leave my little sister with me.

Yes, she's 12. But yet, she's the baby in the family.

She never been apart from my SuperMak for all this time.

Been still sleeping with her all these nights.

And since SuperAyah was away working in Batu Pahat, they were the only people left at home.

Just the two of them.

The BFF.

My sister and my mom.

My SuperMak. Her tears rolled down her cheeks when she talked about leaving my lil sister.

To be apart for more than a month.

Now that I'm a mom. I totally understnad that shitty feeling.

The feeling of leaving your own child away.

I hope I can convince her not to worry.

I will try my very best to take a good care of my lil sister.

My lil sister. She's my lucky star.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Setahun Kita Bersama

Last 14th September 2010 was Batrisyia's first birthday.

There's no birthday party whatsoever. We had a small celebration back at Neneks and Atok's place at Semenyih.

It was day 5 of raya and Tisya baru seminggu keluar hospital due to phenomia.

I took one day off from work just to spent the whole day with my baby.





Untuk 365 hari dan 365 malam kita bersama.
Mama Sayang Tisya!

Photos courtesy of Faradiza.

Friday, October 1, 2010

Ini Ceritanya

Ini apa yang terjadi.


23th June - 27th June : Batrisyia masuk wad. Sebab: Influenza A H1N1.
Kami bertiga dikuarantin dalam Isolation Room for 4 days, and after that, we've been home-quarantined for 2 weeks.


30th August - 5th September : Batrisyia masuk wad. Sebab: Influenza B with phenomia.


You think we are done? Ada sambungan OK.


28th September untill today: She's home quarantine for Hands, Foot and Mouth Disease (HFMD).


Try to be me, people. Try to be in my Vincci-size-3 shoes.


Tak ke depress macam ni?
We've been Dettol's best-friend-forever since the H1N1 event.
We've wipe the babychair and the table with the Dettol everytime we had to use them at public places.
We've been carrying Dettol spray everywhere we went. Wash her hands as frequent as possible.
But still, whyy whyy whyyy?


And you know what, i used to say again and again.
"Kalau penyakit Tisya boleh transfer kat Mama, biar Mama je yang kena."


Guess what?
Everytime she fall sick now, i gonna be sick too.
The day she was released from the ward due to phenomia, i was rush to KPJ emergency room, due to high fever.
And the day she had fever due to HFMD, I had high fever too.
Which is not good, because I need to take care of her.


So to all mothers out there. Careful with what you said.
Tiap baris kata seorang ibu adalah doa.


Lain kali cakap macam ni:
"Kalau penyakit (insert your child's name) boleh transfer kat Mama, time antibodi Mama kuat, biar Mama je yang kena."


Be specific, geddit?


How I wish I could put her inside my tummy back.
Supaya saya boleh bawa dia ke mana saja, dan lindungi dia dari segala kejahatan dan kekejaman dunia.


But like what Papa said, "she needs to explore the world" (the way he said, as if la memang boleh masuk balik dalam perut haha).


But this is life, honey.
It's not always as happy as we want it to be.


Sekuat mana Mama cuba lindungi Tisya, adakala Tisya kena tempuhi juga. Sebab Tisya kena belajar.


Kadangkala sakit melanda,
kadangakala bencana menimpa,


Satu hari hati akan disakiti,
ada janji dikhianati,
sakit jiwa merindui,
ditinggalkan sahabat karib ke Abu Dhabi,
kehilangan kucing disayangi.


Bila saat itu tiba,
Cuma ingat...Mama ada.




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